Sunday, 30 December 2007

American health care

I have just watched sicko and cant believe the system that they have over there when it comes to health care. we take it for granted that our health care is free.. shocking!!! i aint never gonna complain about the NHS again, watch sicko and you will see!!!

Friday, 28 December 2007

meals and injections

2 pieces of toast
3 wheatabix hot milk

snack fruit-apple/banana

sandwich or soup/vegtable

snack fruit yogurt

pasta/or some meat and veg..(mom is very good when it comes to my diet maing sure i have 5 aday etc

check sugars during the day about x4 and before bed.. now its a pain if your sugars are low before you wanna go to bed as yu need to have a sandwich or some other type of carb..unless you want to wake up with a hypo

final injection and bed

the see what the next day has to offer

Get by with a little help from my family and friends

I know i do keep saying it but the support from my family and friends has been amazing... i cant really describe how everyone has supported me, and if you have diabetes or neuropthy you will understand me when i say it is a very lonely disease. Its not like there is a guide to follow which tells you this will happen tomorrow or that will happen... you really do have to live day by day.. cant really make many plans as i dint know how i am going to be the following day and sometimes even in the next hour.. i do seem to be feeling very sick recently before and after meals... am trying to eat smalll and often and not food that is likely to bloat me..which givesme an idea..... i am going to write a small note of my diet for you and what i try and stay away from.. and if you are reading this with the same issues then maybe it will help you too.. if not then its another way of passing the time at this ungodly hour!!

yes its late again.....

Saturday, 22 December 2007


sometimes i wonder if i did something wrong to deserve this
sometimes i wonder if i could have stopped this
sometimes i wonder if i wanna carry on
sometimes i dont wanna take my tablets
sometimes i dont wanna take my blood
sometimes i wanna eat chocolate
sometimes i dont wanna see the doctor
sometimes i wanna wake up and run
sometimes i cant be bothered
sometimes i wanna SEE my friends
sometimes i want my independence


Wednesday, 19 December 2007

Best friends in the world

I now i kinda said it in the last video but i was a bit blurred... i have been so touched my the support i have had from family and friends.. i would not have been able to cope without them ALL..

The hardest part to deal with has been the emotionall side.. the pain to some extent can be controlled and to be honest i am so used to it now..

but its the stuff in my head that hurst the most.. noy being able to do what i want when i want as my body just does not allow me to do things ..

thats when i can count on my friends and family to help out... coming to see me all the way from bromley and driving back the same day..

CHRISTINA i knowyou wont read this as you and computers dont get on, but you have been amazing and your support well i cant put into words...

i cant mention everyone but you all have been influential in your own ways in helping me deal with this pants situation..


so god damn emotional

It cant stop welling up at the mo... i was gonna put a video on but i keep on blubering... turned into a right girl....

well i have had a few good days but feeling so tired .... i cant even walk down the stairs today
without being out of breath...i could sleep all day but i wont...

sent off my papers and stuff for disablilty living allowance, work has given me my last pat packet from them still waiting for someone to get back to me regarding PHI insurance...

soon be xmas though hoping next year willbe better than this...

Tuesday, 4 December 2007

comunity support

had a visit from a comunity support officer getting me out of the house whch can be anything from a course to fishing to a day centre which i dont really wanna do...

had a call from OT today and they are installing bars in various places in tghe house to help me get about.. they will be making me an appointment to a centre where i can use eqiupment around the house which i may get installed to which will be helpful... i must admit having a bath is not only uncomforable but also awkward getting in and out... fingers crossed i amy be entitled to a shower......

i feel sick

not going to great the last few days... everytime i eat a meal it feels like a 4 course meal even though i have cut down on the size of the meals and am eating regular and small... it aint good feeling seick EVERY day..... there is a work xmas do on friday and as i havent seen everyone for ages i wanted to go.. one of the girls is planning of picking me up and taking me back god bless her.. but the way i feel at the moment i aint gonna be able to go.. gutted really as i wanted to go...

see how it goes i suppose...

Friday, 30 November 2007

More about diabetes

The Story of a RibbonDiabetes, often viewed as a "simple little sugar problem," is actually a very serious disease that affects 120 million children, women and men worldwide--and the number is increasing. This silent killer, which is a leading cause of blindness, amputations, kidney failure, heart disease, stroke and other devastating complications, is desperately in need of a cure. The Gray Ribbon Campaign began with a small group of people who decided it was time to get the message across. And noting the success of other ribbon campaigns this group realized that diabetics (and those who care about them) should have their own ribbon---with gray representing clouds (every cloud must have a silver lining) and with the stone symbolizing blood. Thus the Gray Ribbon was born. The ribbon campaign has caught on and is spreading like the USA, Canada, the United Kingdom, Greece, Mexico....wherever there is someone who has heard about the Gray Ribbon.

There are 3 main types of diabetes.
Type 1 diabetes ,

usually diagnosed in children and adolescents, occurs when the pancreas is unable to produce insulin. Insulin is a hormone that ensures body energy needs are met. Approximately 10 per cent of people with diabetes have type 1 diabetes.The remaining 90 per cent havetype 2 diabetes , which occurs when the pancreas does not produce enough insulin or when the body does not effectively use the insulin that is produced.
Type 2 diabetes

usually develops in adulthood, although increasing numbers of children in high-risk populations are being diagnosed.

A third type of diabetes, gestational diabetes, is a temporary condition that occurs during pregnancy. It affects approximately 3.5 per cent of all pregnancies and involves an increased risk of developing diabetes for both mother and child.

Is diabetes serious?

If left untreated or improperly managed, diabetes can result in a variety of complications, including:
Heart dieasePeople with diabetes are at very high risk of heart disease, also known as cardiovascular disease (CVD) and stroke (cerebrovascular disease). In fact, up to 80% of people with diabetes will die as a result of a heart attack or stroke.
Kidney disease About 40% of people with Type 1 diabetes (juvenile onset) and 10% of people with Type 2 diabetes (adult onset) will eventually develop kidney disease which will lead to permanent chronic renal insufficiency (kidney failure).
Eye disease People with diabetes are more likely to develop cataracts at a younger age and are twice as likely to develope glaucoma, but diabetes' effect on the retina is the main threat to vision. Called diabetic retinopathy, this effect of diabetes on the eyes is the most common cause of blindness in people under age 65
Problems with erection
(impotence) ED is defined as the persistent inability to get or maintain an erection that is satisfactory for sexual activity. Most men will experience erectile problems during their life. Although ED affects most men at some point in their lives, it is much more common in men with diabetes. In fact, in up to 12% of men with diabetes, ED is the first sign that leads to the diagnosis of diabetes. Fifty percent of men will experience ED within 10 years of diagnosis of diabetes. Older men with a longer duration of diabetes, poor blood glucose control, and who smoke, have high blood pressure, high cholesterol and heart disease, are at highest risk.Nerve damageGastroparesis affects up to 75% of people with diabetes.
Diabetes is also one of the most common causes of gastroparesis (delayed emptying of the stomach). Gastroparesis occurs when nerves to the stomach become damaged or stop working. The vagus nerve controls the movement of food through the digestive tract, and when damaged, the muscles of the stomach and intestines no longer work normally, and the movement of food slows or stops.
Diabetes can be very damaging to sensory nerves (causing a complication called neuropathy), especially those in the extremities such as the hands and feet. This nerve damage can lead to loss of sensation in the feet, which makes people more prone to injury and less likely to be aware of injuries.

What are the symptoms?
Signs and symptoms of diabetes include the following:
  • Unusual thirst
  • Frequent urination
  • Weight change (gain or loss)
  • Extreme fatigue or lack of energy
  • Blurred vision
  • Frequent or recurring infections
  • Cuts and bruises that are slow to heal
  • Tingling or numbness in the hands or feet
  • Trouble getting or maintaining an erection
It is important to recognize, however, that many people who have type 2 diabetes may display no symptoms.


i had my drugs delivered today .. the pharmacy make up a weekly tray for me and deliver them every month for me which saves alot of hassle opening bottles and stuff i am on about 8 different types.... although i do have enough supply of fortimel drinks to last me a lifetime as whenb i do take themn i feel very bloated and a bit sick so when i am suppose to have about 3 a day i am prob having that a week!!! so if you need any give me shout.. i am sure i can do you a deal lol..i have put on a stone though since i have been released from prison/sorry hospital.... so that is good.. but some of my clothes are also getting s bit tight now....

living hell

yesterday went well until the night came along....... i took my blood at 11 as i could feel my sugars were low it was about 5ml so i had a sandwichh to raise it... after about an hour i satrted to feel odd... a feeling i get when my sugars are high usually above 10 or so... stomach tightens, seqwatingt stiffness and feet start to hurt.. so i took my bllod again it showed 16 !!!!! which i could not understand ... so now i had the dilema of taking some insulin and risk having a hypo early in the morning which is very scary they reached just below 2 one time and that is very scary blurred vision feeling drunk/sick/giddy its hard to explian.. anyway i chose not to and insted endur the pain all night .. ice cold blood running through your veins shooting painsin my feet and legs.... very sensitive skin....
but thats what its like at the mo....ah well thats life......

some life!!!!!!!

oh yeah i did get some sleep at about 6 this morning.... but my stomachhas been playing up as it has been for the past few mo9nths... it happens once maybe twice per week and it kills me for the day ... iys like having foos poisioning.. uncontrolale bowls you dont know when your gons actualy go... every fart seems like a movement!!! and very gasy .... wonder if thats why i am still single lol... or is that because i cant get it up still... i have been prescribed viagra.... but i havent yet have the privalge to use it yet ... 1 i havent been to the docs to pick it up and 2 would like to try it out on a girl rather than my left hand lol.... but i do have something planned ...mmmm but that would be telling...

Wednesday, 28 November 2007

not a bad day

not a bad day so far today, i goes like that sometimes i cant get out of bed and other days i can

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

doctors and diabetes

i have come to the conclusion that doctors rea;;y dont know that much about diabetes and neuropathy, it took them 3 months to finally diagnose me with the neuropathy but it took me ten minutes to find it on thenet god it was staring me in the fcae it was so blatent nevermind what do i know hay... well i am from birmingham!!!! thats my excuse anyway!!

PHI Insurance

Permanent Health Insurance (PHI)

The Permanent Health Insurance (PHI) contract is designed to produce an income for people unable to work due to ill health from any cause.
This scenario is much more common than most people realise, and a lot of people who have a problem get a serious shock when they find how little money they have to live on.
State benefits are sod all, and if you are employed you should find out where your employer stands.
He may have a policy that will pay out for you.
He may have a house rule of 6 months pay.
If there is a pension scheme you might have benefits from it, ( get them quantified, and remember to check your salary definition, esp. if you get commission, bonus, or overtime ).
There may be no formal system in place at all, and it is at his discretion.
They may sack you on the spot or simply give you the usual months notice.
Remember that at the end of the day , no matter how much he may want to support you , your employer is going to have to stop your salary at some stage simply because he won't be able to carry you. Find out where you stand.
If the amount is not enough see about a Permanent Health Insurance (PHI) policy.
Policy details
An income, which can be inflation protected, until retirement. You can normally insure up to 50-65%* of your gross income, (this varies from provider to provider).
Note, if you are arranging your OWN PHI policy, and are not going to be covered by a group scheme then in the event of a claim your income will be tax free. The policy will normally pay out some time after the date at which you stopped working. The shorter this period, the greater the premium. Most people opt for three months, six months or twelve months, according to their position. (Clearly if your employer will pay for six months you don't need the policy to pay out before this). The premium depend on age, occupation, and will normally exclude pre existing conditions.
Watch for the definition of disability. Normally an " own occupation" basis it can be, ( esp. for those in risky jobs, or for whom a small problem can be a disaster), " own or any ", which means that they can take a very tough view of any claim.
Also be aware that many policies are reviewable. This means that if the overall claims, ( not your individual ones, but those of all policyholders ) , are greater than expected they can increase the premiums across the board to all policy holders.
This means that companies can try to buy business with low premiums, only to increase them in later years. Because of this hazard the cheapest quote may not be the best. What you need is "own occupation" from an insurer who has had long experience in the PHI arena.
* If your PHI is arranged by your employer under a group scheme then benefits ARE taxable. However you can be covered for up to 75% of income.


i was bored so i thought i would put this on.. i do look abit sunburnt dont i...;)
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company sick pay stopping

Work called today after no communication in the past 2 months saying my sick pay will stop at the end of december. not a bad run really as i havent been at work for the past 6 months, not for the want of trying though. dont like having to stay in, someone will be contacting me regarding PHI insurance so i need to look into that and find out more about it, i think i will be able to get upto 50% of my salary. fingers crossed.

i havent looked into c;aiming any beniftsover the past few months but my sisters mate reckons that i would be entitled to some, i suppose that denial wa always an issue not actually telling myself that i am disabled id the makes sense.

oh yeah and having a bad day today sugars aare high which menas my back is on fire my stomsch feels like a felt has been tightened around it and i need to go to the toilet .. not good but nothing new there.

Monday, 26 November 2007

what the doc said

i went too see my new diabetic doctor who hadben recomended by a nursein the last hospital i visited thinking how much good advice he would be able to give me... and god how i was wrong i developed neuropathy at the same timeas i was diagnosed with diabetes so as you would asume and what i have read the 2 would be connected... but oh know said the doctor not in my exeprinced do you get neuropathy so soon after being diagnosed. bit of a coincidnece then having the 2 hand in hand but oh know he is right isnt he..

what i have found with these docs is the total lack of knowledge when it comes to the condition!!!

Me and my diabetes

(forgive the spalling i wis naver vary gut!!)

3 months ago i was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes and have just been discharged from hospital with perifernal neoropathy. Which basicly means my nerves have been affected by the disease some have been severed and some just cut off completley. Not that i am looking back and saying "only if i had done something sooner" but if i had been more aware of the disease i proberly would not be if this situation now.i believe i have had the symtons for about 5 years now,Weight lossalways tireddizzy spellsissues done there if you knpw what i meanrashes/sores on my legspins and needles in my feetneed i go on...... but as a typical bloke i just ignored this and thought it will go away!!!i dont believe that there is enough awarness about the disease even though 180 million peopleworld wide have diabetes. its not about how much sugar you eat that causes the issue, ANYONE can get!!!!normally it is passed through the family but as in my case this is also not true.there are 2 types type 1 insulin controlled daily injectionsType 2 which is usually diagnosed in the later stages of life which is diet controlled through tablets. There is a big differnce between the day consists of constant pain, numb feet, pins and needles in my hands, numb back, stomach problems!! both ends!!!!!! problems with my eyes taking 5 different types of drugs (all precribed of course!) constant visitsto the gp, watching everthing that i eat, making sure that i dont eat to much supary foods that will snd my blood sugar to high and if i do my liver kidneys and various other organs will shut down. Or not having enough insulin or suagr in my body that will send me in to a "hypo" which if not caught in time could send me into a coma and Die!!!!Not that i want to scare anyone nor is this a plea for you to feel sorry for me as for people who know me this is not the case.what i would like to do is make you more aware of the symptoms what to look out for and if you like ahve a look at the link and maybe donate some money, you never know you might help someone you kinow with the disease!next time you feel ANY of the symtoms i hav =e mentioned go check your blood sugars ouy with your Gp or Pharmacy. You never know.................Thanks for your time.......Lee

Sunday, 25 November 2007

Me and my diabetes

i am 33 and have been diagnosed with type 1 since may this year.... i say diagnosed becasue i have obviously had it for some time as i have spent the last 3 months in hospital for the docs to finally diagnose me with autonomic neoropathy why it took so long i do not know...i used to live a fairly active life going out every friday living in a flat down south .... but since this i have had to move back with the folks as i cant really function to well by myself.... why well let me give you a little insite to a "normal" day....sometimes i wake in the middle of the night and have to pee in a bottle by my bed a i cant make it to the bathroomi also have to self cathatorise 2 maybe 3 times a day with involves inserting a plastic tube where plastice tubes should not go so i can peewhen i go for a number 2 it usualyy takes me 3 or for times before i get a movemennt and when i do it knocks me for 6 and i have to lie downi have not sensation in my feet, parts of my back and stomah a bit on my face and my hands are tingling and hurt ( the same way my feet were before i lost the feeling its a bit like having sunburn but on a daily basisi can`t get an erection.... the youngest person i know to have viagra prescribed....but not sure when i will actually use it for any real purpose i dont really get out too much....why well my blood pressure has been affected so i cant stand upstraighjt for any long period of time without feeling dizzy and sick (apart of the neoropathy)everytime i eat and i mean evertime i even think about eating as well i have extreme pain in the side of my cheeks as my glands have been affected... think of how your mouth goes when you eat a fizzy cola bottle x that by ten and you have a slight idea of the feelingobvioulsy i am injecting x4 a dayi am on enough drugs to start my own pharmacyi cant walk that well so for long journeys i need a wheel chairdo you have this or know anyone with the same issues... as i could do with speaking to someone who knws what i am going through..i wish i just ahd to deal with my food or injecting but this is just a small part of what u can or cant doso i can answer the question things could be worse by saying... B@;;@CKS CAN THEY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!lee

Type 1 Diabetes

Type 1 Diabetes

The causes of Type 1 diabetes appear to be much different than those for Type 2 diabetes, though the exact mechanisms for development of both diseases are unknown. The appearance of Type 1 diabetes is suspected to follow exposure to an "environmental trigger," such as an unidentified virus, stimulating an immune attack against the beta cells of the pancreas (that produce insulin) in some genetically predisposed people. Treatment of Type 1 Diabetes
Lack of insulin production by the pancreas makes Type 1 diabetes particularly difficult to control. Treatment requires a strict regimen that typically includes a carefully calculated diet, planned physical activity, home blood glucose testing several times a day, and multiple daily insulin injections.

The big three diabetes signs and symptoms

The big three diabetes signs and symptoms

The symptoms of diabetes can be reduced to three major factors. In the case of type 1 diabetes, these symptoms can develop quickly. However, when it comes to type 2 diabetes, symptoms may be far subtler and develop slower.
What are the big three symptoms of diabetes?
The three major symptoms of diabetes are: - Polyuria (The need to urinate frequently)- Polydipsia (Increased thirst and fluid intake)- Polyphagia (Increased appetite)
What happens when a person develops diabetes and reports these symptoms?
These symptoms are caused by the effect of diabetes on the body. If the level of glucose in the blood becomes too high, glucose is improperly reabsorbed through the proximal renal tubuli. This results in higher levels of glucose being present in the urine (glycosuria) and in turn increases the osmotic pressure. This prevents water being reabsorbed by the kidney, resulting in greater urine production. This causes the patient to urinate frequently. Water held in the cells is required to replace lost blood volume, and this causes dehydration and thirst.
What are the other major symptoms of diabetes?
Glucose absorption can change the shape of the lens in the eye, leading to an altered vision quality. This can lead to blurred vision, a common complaint that indicates type 1 or type 2 diabetes. Diabetic Ketoacidosis is another symptom of diabetes.
Where can I learn more about diabetes, diabetes diagnosis and symptoms of diabetes?
Please click here to read more about diabetes symptoms>>Please click here to read about symptoms of high and low blood sugar>>Please click here to learn about diabetes health numbers>>Please click here to use the BMI calculator>>
I’m worried I might have diabetes, who should I speak to?
Speak to a doctor or healthcare expert as soon as possible. Members of the community may also be helpful:

Diabetic neuropathy

Diabetes: Neuropathy
Introduction to diabetic neuropathy
Peripheral neuropathy
Autonomic neuropathy
A common complication of diabetes is damage to the nerves that allow you to feel sensations such as pain. This is called neuropathy. There are a number of ways that diabetes damages the nerves, but they all seem related to blood glucose being too high for a long period of time.
Diabetes-related nerve damage can be painful, but it isn't severe pain in most cases.
There are four types of neuropathy: peripheral, autonomic, proximal and focal.
Peripheral Neuropathy The areas of the body most commonly affected by peripheral neuropathy are the feet and legs. Nerve damage in the feet can result in a loss of foot sensation, increasing your risk of foot problems. Injuries and sores on the feet may go unrecognized due to lack of sensation. Therefore, you should practice proper skin and foot care. Rarely, other areas of the body such as the arms, abdomen, and back may be affected.
Numbness (severe or long-term numbness can become permanent)
In most cases, early symptoms will become less when blood glucose is under control. Medications can be taken to help control the discomfort if needed.
To prevent peripheral neuropathy:
Work with your doctor to keep your blood glucose under tight control
To help prevent the complications of peripheral neuropathy:
Examine your feet and legs daily
Apply lotion if your feet are dry
Care for your nails regularly. (Go to a podiatrist, if necessary)
Wear properly fitting footwear and wear them all the time to prevent foot injury
Autonomic Neuropathy Autonomic neuropathy most often affects the digestive system, especially the stomach, blood vessels, urinary system, and sex organs. To prevent autonomic neuropathy, continuously keep your blood glucose levels well controlled.
Symptoms of neuropathy of the digestive system may include:
Feeling full after small meals Treatments may include:
Eat smaller meals
Symptoms of neuropathy of the blood vessels may include:
Blacking out when you stand up quickly
Increased heart rate
Low blood pressureTreatments may include:
Avoid standing up too quickly
Wearing special stockings
Symptoms of neuropathy of the male sex organs may include:
Unable to have or maintain an erection (erectile dysfunction)*
"Dry" or reduced ejaculations *Note: Impotence needs to be evaluated by your doctor. It may be caused by your medicines or factors other than diabetes.
Treatments include:
Penile implant
Vacuum erection device
Penile injections
Medicine Symptoms of neuropathy of the female sex organs may include:
Decrease in vaginal lubrication
Decrease in number of orgasms or lack of orgasmTreatments include:
Vaginal estrogen creams, suppositories and rings
LubricantsSymptoms of neuropathy of the urinary system may include:
Unable to completely empty bladder
Incontinence (leaking urine)
Increased urination at night Treatments include:
Self-catheterization (inserting a catheter into the bladder to release urine)
Proximal Neuropathy
Proximal neuropathy causes pain (usually on one side) in the thighs, hips, or buttocks. It can also lead to weakness in the legs. Treatment for weakness or pain is usually needed and may include medication and physical therapy. The recovery varies, depending on the type of nerve damage. Prevention consists of keeping blood glucose under tight control.
Focal Neuropathy
Diabetic neuropathy can also appear suddenly and affect specific nerves, most often in the head, torso, or leg, causing muscle weakness or pain. This is known as focal neuropathy. Symptoms may include:
double vision
eye pain
paralysis on one side of the face (Bell's palsy)
severe pain in a certain area, such as the lower back or leg(s)
chest or abdominal pain that is sometimes mistaken for another condition such as heart attack or appendicitis
Focal neuropathy is painful and unpredictable, however, it tends to improve by itself over weeks or months and does not tend to cause long-term damage.
Other Nerve Conditions Seen With Diabetes
People with diabetes can also develop other nerve-related conditions, such as nerve compressions (entrapment syndromes).
Carpal tunnel syndrome is a very common type of entrapment syndrome and causes numbness and tingling of the hand and sometimes muscle weakness or pain.
Prevention of Diabetic Neuropathy
Keeping tight control of your blood sugar levels will help prevent many of these diabetes-related nerve conditions. Talk to your doctor about optimizing your individual diabetes treatment plan

Reviewed by Certified Diabetes Educators in the Department of Patient Education and Health Information and by physicians in the Department of Endocrinology at The Cleveland Clinic. Edited by Cynthia Haines, MD, WebMD, September 2005. Portions of this page copyright © The Cleveland Clinic 2000-2005